First love

I remember the time when I would look at a girl and be like yucky no, I will never get married. But then came the time when my whole perspective towards girls changed.

How did this happen??

Well the answer is simple. I know many would deny this fact but it started with porn. Yes porn!!

When I entered my teen and between my whole puberty I met a guy. He was a big brother to all he young guys but wasn't related. He would always be with a new girl and I must say he was a player.

One day I when I was sitting in the garden he came which a girl. Now she is a girl big deal but she was different. The way she smelled the way she looked the way she dressed. I could not understand what was happening. Yes she was elder then me and no she didn't had a clue of my existence.

As I stared at her the big brother looked at me and gave me a wicked smile and rode of in the sunset with this girl. When he came back I was down having my evening walk when he caught me. He looked at me and said why were you staring at that girl. I was scared as hell and all I could say was no I didn't look at her sorry sorry. I was sure ill be getting a good beating or else he would tell my mom but then the most unusual thing happen, he smiled and said chill I know you are growing up and and I know you are going to imagine about her in the night don't worry she is not my girlfriend and its OK you can think about her

"what a jerk" I thought but couldn't say out loud but then again what was he saying it didn't make sense and then he gave me a CD and told me to watch it when no one is around and I took it and asked him what's is it. He just looked at me and said its Aladdin.

Oh I was so happy that night and wondered why should I watch it alone. But who cares I was a fan of Aladdin princess jasmine, magic carpet, and genie. As I played it I saw the whole Arabian night set-up and the most unusually busty jasmine. As I kept watching my life was changed that basket had ruined my most beloved children memory. They did their business on the poor carpet while genie stood here watching. My life was changed and my view towards girls was changed. Now you must be thinking what is the big deal well I came from an era where we didn't have personal pc android phones and internet. We didn't have access to any kind of literature at a push of a button. Having such material itself was an achievement.

From that day I had a new view towards girl they were not just people with long hair, weird bodies and unusual mood swings they were more. In a while I would try on girls and see where it goes but never had more then holding hands. Then I saw her my first love. She looked so cute with those puppy eyes, and horse tail like pony. She always were pink and the most delicate thing I have ever seen and I knew it was love because I didn't want to see her naked.

IN THE BEGINNING OF TIME

Every kid’s dream is to be a teenage. The cool shoes, gadget, pocket money, and the freedom to go anywhere you feel like. I know it because I dreamed about it many time as a kid I would see my neighbor’s 18 year old kid going on his bike with his Bluetooth headsets grooving on a song or a friend’s 15 year old sister sitting in a coffee shop eating a piece of my favorite chocolate cake without even consulting or depending on her mother. It felt like a dream, a dream that was not too far but my patience was varying.

Then was the day I reached my teenage and how did I know, well it was easy. For the first time in my life my dad trusted me with a 100 rupees note. He called me close one evening and said “son now that you are big you have to take care of your own and not run behind you mother for every small thing, here is a 100 rs note this is your pocket money for the week use it wisely”.

I was so happy that day that I ignored the fact that I was tricked by my father. I had my first pocket money and I was so happy I had forgotten the fact that my daily expense is around hundred and how am I supposed to last a week.

That day I went down to my friends all pimped up “like a boss”!. Pulled out my power ranger wallet and showed every one my first pocket money. Soon on of my friend started calculating 100 for a week a month has 4-5 week that means 500 a month ka-ching! A year has 12 month that means 6000 a year ka-ching! ohh my god you going to be rich. My eyes popped out with money.  Now I can buy that gear cycle I always wanted and still have some money for me, but first let’s celebrate, to the coffee shop.

I was flying that day no one can pull me down; I was soaring like an eagle, no! Much awesome then an eagle, a jet, I was soaring the sky like a jet, a jet with 100 rupees fuel.”

Mayday mayday! I think we are out of fuel eject!” yes I had to eject. I reached the coffee shop picked up the menu chocolate mousse 150 rupees, death by chocolate 240 rupees, a slice of dark forest chocolate cake 75 rupees. What the censored! My uncle Suresh bought a cake for me on my birthday and the whole cake cost 140 rupees.

I started doing the math every day I get up on my way to the my school I have a fruit cake worth 15 rupees, a 10 rupees chocolate chip cookies for later, a fruity drink worth 25, every day I misplace a pen 10 rupees for that, 2 vada-pav worth 10 rupees, the gaming parlor 10 rupees and the ice cream after that 5 rupees.

Hmmmmm………..

Every day I spend around 85 rupees how am I supposed to last this 100 for a whole week.  There must be some mistake dad must have done some mistake.

I ran to my dad with his hundred rupees privilege in my hand. It all went in my movie like a western movie.

Me: dad!

Dad: son!

Me: how could you

Dad: someone had to do it.

Me: but its not at all fair.

Dad: its time you learn the value of money

The then he started sounding like a regular old Indian dad a typical dad. “son when I was your age I didn't have privileges like you, when I was a kid i my pocket money was just 10 rupees. we didn't have your fancy coffee shop or mobiles or other gadget and look at me I did just fine so its time you start growing up and being a man”. What the censored he was young a hundred years back when they just started making money.

I had to confront him “but dad” he looked an angry look “no means no, either you take the money or ill take it and then you will have no money to take care of your stupid expenses”

Like that my dreams shattered and I was left alone with the 100 rupees note. Grown-ups say our life is easy well I would say give those 100 and tell them to survive……  

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